I spent a full day in abject pain yesterday- BUT it was worth it because it was in response to my pulling together a charity event for 2 small charities. I operate daily thanks to a multitude of meds bit on some days the meds do NOT even bring my pain to within a bearable level. Yesterday was that day. Everything hurt despite the meds – despite taking more than double the usual painkillers …. A night of broken sleep last night, despite amitriptyline… led to today’s morning….and I felt sad when I woke.
I felt more sad when the electric went and I had to get dressed and go out ( believe me my legs argued against it) …
I felt more sad when I then realised I had to go to my mums to take her food shopping, despite feeling h awful, as this is my job… ( mum’s in a sheltered accommodation for dementia sufferers)…
And I feel bloody awful now as I leave her….. she was in an awful state – disorientated & dishevelled and wandering the halls….
And its not even midday.
The 10 tablets I’ve taken for my problems haven’t even touched them and I feel like a complete failure as a daughter…how can I allow this to happen to my mum..
In short- today I feel SAD
