A realisation today that made me cry

Today I was laying in bed ( woke up at 6am, still stuck in bed at 10.15 as legs just wouldn’t move properly), watching videos. When I stumbled across a video of one of the best days of my life. Sunday June 10th 2007 – George Michael concert at the new Wembley….. YES I WAS…

My weird and wonderful friends

I’ve become friends with 2 magpies, who I have named mama and papa. They have taken up residence in a chimney pot in a house a few doors down from mine and I’m happily feeding them every now and then. Its breeding season and I will hopefully soon be a “grandparent: to some Magpie grandchildren..…

My Blog helps me stay sane

I’ve always been a book-nerd (I say nerd not worm, as I was always nto the nerdier kinds of reads, you know Sci-fy, Science, Horror, Fantasy – with a smidge of nature & biography’s in there too). Reading was always one of my favourite things to do, beofe my eyesight started to fail me –…

Its been a Long time

Its been a while – As you know I lost my mum and that hit me hard. Ive never felt more emotional than the last few months, but not the sort you would think. I’m not a Crier, never have been BUT I am an “Angry’er” if that’s a word… I’m angry the world lost…

I feel 10 feet tall.

Have spent the afternoon taking advantage of a low pain day, listening to 80’s music, building a website for a friend,  sourcing sponsors for the free community event I help put on every year at Christmas for kids in Surrey & designing the posters for that event.A very satisfying, rewarding afternoon.They dont happen often but…

1 month ago, I lost my North

I’ve been quiet. I’m sorry. It’s been a truly hard few months. My mother who had severe dementia, felt so isolated when the care home went into Lockdown ( as did many there) that she stopped eating, stopped drinking and died. June 10th, I lost my true North. I am bereft. Physical pain of fibromyalgia…

Today

Today I dragged myself to my mum’s bedside (I say dragged as my bones are so incredibly painful today – fellow spoonies will understand) after taking all my meds plus 3 Paracetamol. I spent an hour & half with her, trying to get her to drink a little (although she is now choking (pretty standard…

Stop the world, I wanna get off.

It’s been ages since I’ve written. I’m trying so hard to not get depressed. In fact to many I’m overly calm and to some I am appearing quite weirdly unemotional considering everything I have going on. I know, they have told me so. I laugh it off, as always.. I use the ” This is…